So cool how God shows us little things to remind of of bigger ones

   Today was a pretty restful day. I think I woke up around 10am and then got tired again around 11:30. Wow, I slept almost all day.  It was sweet Lizzy slept curled up next to me the whole entire time. It was nice. So, since I have this week off I have the privilege of being out of town with Stephen. Tonight as I was following behind Stephen to get to our destination I was watching his lights and it was raining and dark. It looked as if his lights were flashing like when you are trying to warn others you are going slow or something. Every car after that looked like that was happening. With that happening I think God was just reminding me of the little one inside me and the heart beating with love. I can't wait till Stephen and I can feel the baby kicking.  Well, I am going to call it a night.  Hope everyone is doing well.

Tired Tired Tired... Whats new!

   Wow, I never thought I would be this tired all the time. Its hard to stay awake at times especially if I am not doing anything productive. So, I have gotten better at making sure I drink plenty of water each day. Of course, I have to add a flavor pack into it. I can't stand it plain unless I am really thirsty. I have a container I leave at work that is 16oz. I try to drink at least 3 full cups of that a day so I am getting at least 6 glasses of water a day. Not too bad I don't think. 

I am starting to think of ways to decorate the baby room and I want to find separate puzzles for each letter of the alphabet to hang as a border on the wall. I haven't found anything just yet. Hint to why I am putting this on here. If you find a website or think of a store that I can order some like that I would greatly appreciate it. I was thinking it would be something fun to do throughout the pregnacy. That way I don't necessarily dwell on the current time always but I can look forward to a little special someone that can someday enjoy something I spent my time on for his or her room. I would love to put a verse on the ceiling and maybe even the prayer for the little ones that goes : "Now I lay me down to sleep.....  That would be really cool because eventually I could lie on the floor with the little one and just look up and it can be a routine to start each night by looking and saying that prayer.

I am just so estatic to have a little one to hold and know that it is one that came from inside of me. Of course, part of Stephen too. It is so amazing how God puts things together. I have kind of come to the conclusion that my first wasn't the right time because God still had many ways he wanted to use me before settling down with my own family. For one, he helped me with a really close friend of mine and her kids to help them enjoy life each day and I think he helped me see that even through the hard times he is there. I planted a flower garden this past May I believe and did it in memory of the one we lost, which we named Hope. The flowers and their colors and the growth of them help me see God's creation and how he helps liven things up even when going through the hard times. It was really cool because around the end of September the flowers were really looking sad and depressing and it made me sad because I didn't have the color and life to look forward to each day. Shortly after that happen with the flowers he brought on new excitement to each minute, day, week, month until the little one arrives.  Wow, is God ever amazing. I have to say until now I never realized all of this and how God planned every second out for me. I pray that everyone is able to go through something like this in life whether it be now or years down the road, it will always be special to you.

Thank you God for giving me something more to live for each day and something to enjoy waking up to and just knowing I have a little one growing inside of me this very minute.

Glad I was able to share this with you all and I really hope you enjoyed it and it helps you slow down and think about why certain things happen in life that we may or may not want to happen.

Love you all,
Jackie

Photos

  Week 6 photo

Things are looking good!

  We went for a dr appointment to check on the baby and make sure he/she is continuing to do well. The dr said all is looking good. Now instead of the baby being a grain of rice as explained in the first ultra sound, the baby is a chicken. I think so far some of my cravings are: pickles, popcorn, burrito at a mexican restrauant like Moe's and chocolate. I haven't oficially gotten sick, but I have had a few times where I felt really close to it. Boy, is that not a fun feeling, but then again if that is what God is going to leave with me for a little while to know that I still have a little alive and kicking than I will settle with that. This morning while getting ready for work I said a little prayer asking God to allow the little one in me to be ok and that I would dedicate the baby to him and show them the love of God and how great he is. Thank you all so much for your prayers. I can't tell you how much it means to me.

I go next Wed. 10/28 to fill out preg. paperwork and back to the dr on the 4th of November for a check up. Things are looking really good. Stephen has been great through this. We pray every night for this little one and for the strength for him/her to grow. Hope everyone had a great Monday. I know mine was awesome. What a great way to end the day that normally everyone dislikes. If anyone thinks of any verses for me to cling to through this pregnacy or this time could you please send them my way? It will be appreciated.

Love you all!
Jackie

Great timing

    Well, I have been hesitant to blog anything yet because of everything I went through in March. It has been a long tough road for both Stephen and I. You never realize how precious life is until you experience it.  So, two weeks ago I took a test and found out I am pregnant. It has been both exciting and nerve recking. I pray that God will stay by my side and let this baby grow in my womb until its the day for him/her to come out and greet the world. This week has been long for me between having things going on after work to feeling tired and nauseaus. I believe I have had maybe one night where I went to bed around 930pm, all other nights I went to bed at 5pm, 730pm or whatever. The awesome part of this pregnacy happening is that it is like a healing to what happened 6 months ago. Not that I will ever forget the little one we lost, but it gives me something to look forward to. I have clung to the verse Jeremiah 29:11 ever since I lost the little one in March. My mother in law pointed it out to me as well as others and it has helped me through the long dark tunnel.

Yesterday, Stephen and I went to my first ultrasound appointment. It was really hard for me. If you have gone through a miscarriage or have experienced something similar than you can have more of an understanding.

Today I talked to one of the nurses about my results from my ultrasound yesterday. The Doctor said all is looking well and that the low heart rate that the baby has is normal because of how early on I am in my pregnacy. Although he does want me to come back the end of the month just for a check up and he will do a manual heart rate monitor of the baby for my sake. They are really nice and understanding where I am going. The only thing I don't like is how with my pregnacy back in March, they wanted to do a second ultrasound a week and a half later and when they sent me the reminder letter it said because of the low heart rate, so that just is in the back of my mind now. So, if everyone could please pray for a continuing growth of a strong heart beat for the baby. Thanks! Well I am off to bed, I am about to fall asleep here at my desk. My body has gotten used to the 8pm or so bedtime. I can't handle too much later anymore:( I am a party pooper now.

Signing off to rest with the little one in me.....