Tired Tired Tired... Whats new!

   Wow, I never thought I would be this tired all the time. Its hard to stay awake at times especially if I am not doing anything productive. So, I have gotten better at making sure I drink plenty of water each day. Of course, I have to add a flavor pack into it. I can't stand it plain unless I am really thirsty. I have a container I leave at work that is 16oz. I try to drink at least 3 full cups of that a day so I am getting at least 6 glasses of water a day. Not too bad I don't think. 

I am starting to think of ways to decorate the baby room and I want to find separate puzzles for each letter of the alphabet to hang as a border on the wall. I haven't found anything just yet. Hint to why I am putting this on here. If you find a website or think of a store that I can order some like that I would greatly appreciate it. I was thinking it would be something fun to do throughout the pregnacy. That way I don't necessarily dwell on the current time always but I can look forward to a little special someone that can someday enjoy something I spent my time on for his or her room. I would love to put a verse on the ceiling and maybe even the prayer for the little ones that goes : "Now I lay me down to sleep.....  That would be really cool because eventually I could lie on the floor with the little one and just look up and it can be a routine to start each night by looking and saying that prayer.

I am just so estatic to have a little one to hold and know that it is one that came from inside of me. Of course, part of Stephen too. It is so amazing how God puts things together. I have kind of come to the conclusion that my first wasn't the right time because God still had many ways he wanted to use me before settling down with my own family. For one, he helped me with a really close friend of mine and her kids to help them enjoy life each day and I think he helped me see that even through the hard times he is there. I planted a flower garden this past May I believe and did it in memory of the one we lost, which we named Hope. The flowers and their colors and the growth of them help me see God's creation and how he helps liven things up even when going through the hard times. It was really cool because around the end of September the flowers were really looking sad and depressing and it made me sad because I didn't have the color and life to look forward to each day. Shortly after that happen with the flowers he brought on new excitement to each minute, day, week, month until the little one arrives.  Wow, is God ever amazing. I have to say until now I never realized all of this and how God planned every second out for me. I pray that everyone is able to go through something like this in life whether it be now or years down the road, it will always be special to you.

Thank you God for giving me something more to live for each day and something to enjoy waking up to and just knowing I have a little one growing inside of me this very minute.

Glad I was able to share this with you all and I really hope you enjoyed it and it helps you slow down and think about why certain things happen in life that we may or may not want to happen.

Love you all,
Jackie